Early this year, I began taking medication for my depression/social anxiety. I believe it has helped me to a constant extent, especially for depression. Once I would skip school and pretend to be sick, because it was so difficult getting up in the morning. Now I can operate with that much better.

Socially, I'm much more comfortable around people, but still not... "there yet" I'll tell to even the strangers in my college class, but something still is wrong. I can small talk, but it's so hard for me to really construct a connection, I suppose, with people to own a friendship with. I'm 18, never been in a relationship, and own no close friends. Only "acquaintances".

Socially I've been on a rollercoaster ride since sophomore year of high school (I'm a college freshman now). Sophomore year I totally avoided society. Junior and Senior year were better, but I still never had a close friendship with anyone. Aside from discussion in school, I had not a soul.

Also, my perception of things seems to be changing, and in a greatly weird way. Sometimes I see the road or carpet move and current although it is (obviously) not. When I try to sleep, I hear voices that sound as if they were right near.

What's going on with me? A part of me tells myself "It's nil serious and life is good". But another part of me wants to basically break down and cry- no good friends, never been in a relationship, and my perception is out of whack.

My mother (who is the individual one I live with) often says how different I am and that it seems that she didn't even lift me. In truth, I am quite different from her politically, religiously, spiritually, etc and just in our broad beliefs. She calls me somewhat of an extremist when it comes to things.

I am an animal lover and have seven pets (2 dogs, 2 ferrets, a snake, a lizard, and an exotic cricket). I see my want to strictness for an love for animals as a passion; she says that I am trying to make up for something missing within my life. Who knows, she may be right.

I often use my imagination to relaxing down. I want a friend or boyfriend, I imagine a relationship of such. I can spend hours in bed just using my imagination to serve me feel a certain way.

Any thought on what could be going on with me? I go to a psychiatrist regularly but that is for social anxiety admin. I would be so odd to tell him other problems that may seem offbeat (seeing the road flounder, voices when I try to sleep, etc).

Surely I can't be too crazy, because I notice what's going on and know it's probably not too normal. But this doesn't nouns like schizophrenia does it?

Also, I've read about something called Avoidant person disorder, and it seems quite similar to myself. Could this be possible?

I asked this recently, asking again for more diverse input from others.

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Answers:

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It sounds resembling severe depression. :/ That's really all I can think of. I've felt the track you are now. I've even had a doctor tell me that I have been unhappy for so long that it became typical to me. You aren't crazy. You may be bipolar, too.

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