i've had depression episodes since fourth grade. they less commonly come with the next few years. in 7th category, they started coming back, but worse. i had major lows and strange high... now i am in high conservatory and i can't take this anymore. i have had counseling surrounded by the past... also this year. i haven't been there for more or less 3 weeks. i need something to help control my behavior.

EX: recently i found myself beside a lysol can spraying my whole body and clothing. i was screaming things that didn't make sense. after something like 40 minutes i'm like ...what? that is not normal behavior.

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Answers:

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You necessitate to see a doctor or a psychologist. You sound like you do not know what you are doing 100% of the time and this is very, extremely dangerous.

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The Highs and lows kinda sound like BiPolar,
I don't certificate the other symptoms though.

You should go to your doctor ASAP, and get yourself checked out.
Maybe theres some medication or Therapy that mite help (:

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